Mortality

Today I'm going to jump ahead in our adventures. We lost Fluffy on April 15th, 2024, to lymphoma cancer. There is not a day that goes by we have not thought of her and all of the happy times that we shared together. I'm not sure Fluffy ever pondered her own mortality when she was sick. She was still full of love and affection that last day. She more than anything wanted to come home and we would have loved for that to happen, unfortunately it was not to be.

In the early morning of May 2nd, 2024, I suffered a heart attack. I had to wake Michele up and tell her I needed to go to the hospital. While at the hospital it was discovered I had major blockage and a stent was placed in my heart. I've been told on multiple occasions that acting quickly on this heart attack may saved my life and prevented further heart issues. However, while I laid on the table, in what seemed like a beehive of activity surrounding me, in that brief time I had enough time to think of my own mortality. I remember thinking, I'm just short of fifty years and smiling at that. I also thought I'm not ready yet. I don't want to leave Michele yet. I love Michele and Fluffy more than anything. Michele and I have only scratched the surface when it comes marriage. We have only been married for four years now. To have all this happen in a span of month has been difficult for both of us. The following day while recovering in the hospital, Michele brought a picture of Fluffy. She thought it would make me happy and provide some encouragement. She was right, it did both. I was fortunate enough to come home and continue to recover. I'm getting better with each passing day. Fluffy and I would take naps together (apparently Michele took many pictures of us while we napped together) . While recovering at home, I wish I could have another nap with her. I miss my little friend.

Again while Fluffy was a cat, I'm not sure she cared so much about mortality itself. I think all she would care about is affection and love. Perhaps this is the biggest take away when thinking about one's owns life, is not to be wasteful and hate, but rather enjoy what you have with your loved ones. Even though Fluffy is no longer with us, I'm still learning from her. We are here on this planet for a short time, make the most of that opportunity.